Exhausted and longing to find refuge in rest. I am awake and unable to sleep. Pain always seems to be my body’s response to stress. It is my early warning system that things are overwhelming. As if in the past my normal response would have been to stuff it all down and keep on going.

Now beyond my control my body forces me to recognize something I can’t ignore. I have limited reserves and I know the importance of self-care. I practise being compassionate with myself and accepting when I know there is nothing more I can do but take the pain meds required to take the edge off so that I can rest. So I will retire to the comfort of bed, warm blankets, and a heating pad. I am grateful for the blessings in my life,and I will hope for a better tomorrow. Holding on….

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